I guess it's good to take note, every now and again, of what it'll be like to maintain a lower weight! And I still earned me another one of these:
(If you're confused because I just earned the 10# sticker last week, it's because last week, I was figuring my loss specifically during the Shrinking into Summer challenge time frame ~ now I'm counting my loss since I started conscientiously TRYING to lose weight on April 11, when I started this Bible study.)
The plan is, of course, to continue losing for another 20 lbs or so.
Yesterdays Bible study lesson in Numbers 11 really drove home the point about reliance on God and about not looking back at what we HAD. Like the Israelites constantly complaining about God's provision for them in the wilderness and wistfully remembering the "luxuries" of Egypt.
Funny how easily they seemed to forget the whippings from the slave drivers. And the mass murder of their firstborn sons.
But they craved the meat, fish, and fruit they'd eaten while in captivity. Manna was getting boring.
In the firm grip of temptation, it's difficult to see the BAD part about sin. It's hard to care that I'll feel all disgusting and bloated tomorrow morning because I caved in, ate anything and everything in sight, and gave the devil the music for his happy dance. It's hard to remember how much I hated myself the last time I chose the devil over God. I completely forget how much I hated seeing the scale stuck at "WAY TOO HEAVY" week after week, month after month, year after year. All I can see is how badly I want to eat the way I used to ~ and not think about it.
In times like those, it's even hard to remember how great victory feels. You know that feeling when you've stared temptation down and WON the showdown? How many of you remember THAT feeling when the bag of chips is calling from the cupboard? I certainly don't.
We need to stop looking back on what we once were and selectively remembering the parts that weren't "that bad."
Slavery is ALWAYS bad!
God's deliverance and power is always good. It's always there. We need to gratefully accept His offer to provide for us and CLING to His strength in our weakness. And we need to "walk the wilderness" HIS way.
Which means choosing Him over slavery. EVERY TIME.