Well, I'm back down to where I was the second week. But at least it's down from the beginning of the month and not up! I'm posting a grand total loss of only 2.2 pounds for the last 4-1/2 weeks.
I gotta say, I'm not real pleased with that. Especially since if weigh-in day had been on Monday, I would have been able to say a total loss of 3.8!!
I've decided to return to what worked the best for me in the past ~ a return to the eating plan recommended by the Bible study that kicked off this whole blog. There's no counting, no calculating, no planning ~ just no breakfast and lunch some days! As tough as it might be for some to understand, I find it easier to just not eat than to care about what I can or can't have, how much, how many points it's worth, or how many fat and calories it contains. I even find it easier than days when the eating plan allows half-portions all day. I guess I'm a bit of an "all or nothin'" kinda gal in that way!
I quit using this eating plan two years ago once summer rolled around. When my girls were home during the day, I didn't want them to see me "starving myself" on the liquids/fasting days. This year, with deciding to start again only a month before school's out, I'm faced again with the dilemma of how to handle it or if I will continue at all. (My past experience with quitting and then trying to resume 2 months later would tell me it makes more sense NOT to take a break!!)
My girls know I'm overweight, and they know it's because I eat more than my body needs for daily function. They understand the relationship there, and they also understand that because I wasn't more self-disciplined all these years, there's hard work to be done in order to reverse the effects ~ the weight AND the attitude/habits. So I'm not sure I really NEED to hide it, yet I'm not sure I can do it successfully in a way that doesn't seem like I'm just consumed with meeting the beauty standards of the media. So the jury's still out on that one.
But it is a return to the plan that netted me my loss this week, so I'm looking forward to at least another four weeks of good progress before summer begins!