Ugh.Once again, hubby's 4-day "visit" persuaded me to completely throw out all semblance of order and MODERATION. Well, actually, I think until last night, I would have done okay at maintaining, even though I didn't write anything down.
But last night was pure binging ugliness.
The night before weigh-in is always my biggest struggle and add to that the emotional eating that almost always happens the first night hubby's gone, and you've got a disaster of epic proportions.
So it stands to reason that I'm finishing off this challenge with a GAIN of 1.2 pounds. Blecgh.
I'm finding after the busy week I had ending Sunday night, that I'm just drained. I've got no energy, no focus, and I just don't care about anything! Which, of course, includes attempting to eat in moderation.
I think part of my problem is a spiritual problem. Again. After spending a few months in turmoil and struggling with conviction, now that I've found out why all that was happening and what the point was, I feel myself coasting again and not spending the same kind of time in the Word and in prayer as I did before. I'm not hungry for it anymore, which saddens me. Last week, I chalked it up to being insanely busy and having a bajillion things to do each day to keep the house running while I organized the church Christmas program, but this week it's just pure laziness.
So I think my goal for the next several weeks is not specifically quantitative, but rather qualitative ~ I want to feel my stomach rumbling before at least one meal each day (preferably two) and I want to dig back into my quiet time with God.
I want BOTH kinds of hunger back!!
7 comments:
i love my Bible study class, but like you just don't have the personal hunger for daily one on one time. sad isn't it?
you're still down for the over all challenge though right?
I'm up 4 lbs, so I'm on the same side as you.
Hoping you find the strength to get re-focused on all aspects of your life. You are worth it!
I also struggle with the night before weigh in. Everything looks delicious for some reason I have less willpower...
Good for you for being down overall. You're doing a great job - focus on the big picture and things will start falling into place!
I, too, always seem to face a challenge the night before weighing in. It's tough with your husband coming and going -- I know the weeks when my husband travels for business are the worst! The emotional upheaval, everything depending on you... hugs to you. You'll get that 1.2 pounds back!
Sounds like you need to accept
my challenge ;)
Don't be discouraged. Tomorrow is a new day!
I like your goal - I think we all go through this sometimes.
Don't worry about the gain. We all go through times like this when "nothing feels right". Sometimes it just takes a little "kick in the rear" to make everything line up the way it should! You will get your moderation back!!
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